Selfish

I found a picture of myself not being myself, so here I am all to myself.

Tip the Sea, Sip the Tea

Summer time and the wind is blowing outside in lower Chelsea, and I don't know what I'm doing in this city. The sun is always in my eyes. It crashes through the windows, and I'm sleeping on the couch. When I came to visit you that's when I knew I could never have you. I knew that before you did. Still I'm the one who's stupid. And there's this burning. Like there's always been. I never been so alone. And I've never been so alive.

Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by. The cigarette ash flies in your eyes, and you don't mind. You smile and say the world doesn't fit with you. I don't believe you. You're so serene Careening through the universe. Your axis on a tilt. You're guiltless and free. I hope you take a piece of me with you.

And there's things I'd like to do that you don't believe in. I would like to build something, but you never see it happen.

And there's this burning like there's always been. I've never been so alone, and I've, I've never been so alive. And there's this burning. There is this burning.

Where's the soul I want to know.

New York City is evil.
The surface is everything, but I could never do that. Someone would see through that.

And this is our last time we'll be friends again. I'll get over you, you'll wonder who I am.

And there's this burning. Just like there's always been. I've never been so alone, alone, and I've, and I've never been so alive. So alive.

I go home to the coast, it starts to rain. I paddle out on the water alone taste the salt and taste the pain.

I'm not thinking of you again.

Summer dies, and swells rise. The sun goes down in my eyes. See this rolling wave darkly coming to take me home.

And I've never been so alone.
And I've never been so alive...

A Plague On Both Your Houses!

Night Clouds

Original message:
"Night clouds are the lost dreams of searching souls."
Replies:
"Their spirit stripped and utterly alone."
"Some dreams are better lost."
"I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad that the dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had."
"You’re crazy."
"Beneath the twisted web of lies we weave, lies the truth which even we don’t believe."
"I can’t remember if everything is the same and what you think I should be!" "New dreams are hidden in the depths of the seas, but those are the least expected."
"The road less traveled no longer exists."

When I Was In Paris I met Her and Yves Klein "Saut Dans Le Vide"

I can't imagine all the people that you knowAnd the places that you goWhen the lights are turned down lowAnd I don't understandAll the things you've seenBut I'm slipping in betweenYou and your big... dreamsIt's always you and my big dreamsAnd you tell meThat it's overBut i can't stand here in a patch of four leaf cloverAnd your restlessAnd I'm nakedYou've got to get outYou can't stand to see me shakingNo, could you let me goI didn't think soAnd you don't want to be here in the futureSo you sayThe present's just a pleasantInterruption to the pastAnd you don't want to look much closer'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hopeThat you had sent into the sky by now had... crashedAnd it did because of meAnd then you bring me homeAfraid to find out that you're alone, noAnd I'm sleeping in your living roomBut we don't have much roomTo liveAnd I had dreams that i would learn to play guitarMaybe cross the countryBecome a rockstarAnd there was hope in meThat I could take you thereBut dammit you're so youngBut I don't think I careAnd if I hurt you then i'm sorryPlease don't think that this was easyAnd then you bring me home'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, noAnd I'm dreaming in your living roomBut we don't have much roomTo liveKonstantine came walking down the stairsDoesn't she look goodStanding in her underwear?And i've been thinking, and i've thinking, noBut she's been drinkingAnd it doesn't get me anywhereMy Konstantine came walking down the stairsAnd all that I could doWas touch her long blond hairAnd I was thinking, what I was thining ya knowWe've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhereThis is because I can spell konfusion with a KIt's hard to like itIt's to dying in anothers armsAnd why i had to try itIt's to jimmy eat worldAnd those nights in my carBut this time i'm alone, and i don't see those starsI'm not your star?Isn't that what you saidWhat you thought this song meantYou thought this song meantAnd if this is what it takesJust to lie in my mistakesAnd live with what I did to youAnd all the things i put you throughI always catch the clock it's 11:11And now you want to talkIt's not hard to dreamYou'll always be my KonstantineThey'll never hurt you like I doNo, They'll never hurt you like I doNo, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, NoThis is to a girl who got into my headWith all these pretty things she didHey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bedIt's to a girl who got into my headWith all the screwed up things I didHey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bedMy KonstantineSpin around me like a dreamWe played out on this movie screenAnd I said,Did you know I miss youDid you know I miss youDid you know I miss youDid you know I miss youDid you know I miss youDid you know I miss youDid you know I miss youGod, I miss youAnd then you bring me homeAnd we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,And you'll kiss me in your living room, ohAnd you see, no, that i've been missing in my Living roomCause this is what i miss, what i missWe don't have much roomI said, does anybody need that room?Because we all need a little more roomTo liveMy Konstantine

Too Old

We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads I need your grace To remind me To find my own If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Too Old

We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads I need your grace To remind me To find my own If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Too Old

We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads I need your grace To remind me To find my own If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Too Old

We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads I need your grace To remind me To find my own If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Too Old

We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads I need your grace To remind me To find my own If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Hidden Behind Clear Curtains

I Cropped Out Josh and Rondal To Make This A More Incriminating Picture Of Myself

We Are Each Others Personal Jesters

"Five Hours Later Preston Finally Got On That Train To Boston"

1. Graduate [Remix] - Third Eye Blind
2. Can't Get Enough of You Baby - Smash Mouth
3. Dammit - blink-182
4. I Walk In - Brougham
5. Turn It Up (Remix)/Fire It Up - Busta Rhymes
6. Hit 'Em Wit da Hee [Remix] - Missy Elliott
7. Swing My Way [Remix] - Envyi
8. Flash Light - Parliament
9. It's Tricky - Run-D.M.C.
10. High - Feeder
11. Tell Me What to Say - Black Lab
12. Farther Down - Matthew Sweet
13. Can't Hardly Wait - The Replacements
14. Umbrella - Dog's Eye View
15. Paradise City - Guns N' Roses