Thursday, June 29, 2006

Welcome To Honduras, Watch Out For The Spiders

Blue, red, yellow, "Salva Vida", "Pollo Rey", "Shasta Cola", "Ferreteria El Toronjal", "Dia Especial De Asamblea".

I remember how Johnny used to read every sign he saw. Only Jehovah knows how he would pronounce these, and that's one reason I'm here.

The futbol field is green, the stadium blue, red and yellow, the mountains are green and black, the sky is white and blue, and the stage is white with sun flowers.

The speakers voice echoes off the walls and into the city like that of a futbol sports announcer. He turns to the brother he is interviewing and asks about hurricane Catrina and its affect on our brothers and sisters in the States. Before the brother could finish telling his experiences tears began to cool the heat rising from his cheeks, taking this small group of Jehovah's people in Honduras and making them a part of the world wide loving family carrying Jehovah's name.

Appreciating this experience the lightning claps along with the rest of us. Up go the Umbrellas.

By the way can someone please send me and umbrella? ;-)

As the rain abides the colors are enhanced by the billions of tiny water mirrors covering everything. The humidity does a wave through the crowd.

Remembering his days of honey, biscuits, and heat this little Floridian laughs at natures attempt to take away his happy mood.

When the rain begins again a thing not seen in this stadium before happens. Umbrellas start moving down from the upper covered sections to the lower open ones. These umbrellas seem to have a mind of their own as they find those most in need.

Last night Rondal had one of his first looks at poverty and I had a sad reminder. On our way to one of the only Burger Kings in Honduras we saw barely clothed children sleeping on the street. Some looked as if they were already dead. Knowing only Jehovah could correct such things didn't stop us from slipping them enough money for a small meal. We knew that this small amount would only keep them alive one more day in this system. I think we gave just to ease our own saddened hearts.

Note to self: If ever you happen to be in a very hot place sit behind the group of older women. They fan themselves so much it's like you have your own personal slaves waving you with palm branches.

Have we let the cold heart of this system of things turn our service to Jehovah luke warm? Strange how physical heat can cool off our desire for service.

The not-so-itsy-bitsy spider crawled on Rondal's bed.
Down came my foot on his big fat head.
Out came the sun and dried up all his guts.
And the not-so-itsy-bitsy pieces were carried away by ants, the end.

Rondal and I walk out of Barefoot Charlies at around 7:00 p.m. The sun shot one last desperate beam of light at us before setting the sea ablaze.
Feeling the moistened sand beneath his feet, Rondal questions, "Did it rain while we were in there?"
Looking at the dark clouds rolling in from the east, I shoot back a cocky, "Seems that way."
"We still need to get that Coke."
"Then go get it!"
Our laughter at my pathetic attempt at sarcasm is cut short as angry cloud monsters begin peeing on us. In direct defiance of the monsters I march on. Rondal, however has another mission more pressing than securing goods for later. He must save the precious Laptop of Dell. At this point we split company. He taking the path and I continuing on the sand road.

Just then the flood gates from heaven open and one of the cloud monsters hocks an enormous lugie right on me! My body is completely soaked but my soul is dried by the flaming determination in my eyes. I trudge through the flooded streets as those less determined cower under roof and umbrella. They look at me with eyes that are cheering me on to whatever foolish mission I must be indepted to.

Stepping with my head down into the store I slowly turn my blue gaze up, looking at all those hiding from the rain with disappointment. With great dignity I let myself drip puddles of water through out the store, so those left behind can remember I was there.

Procuring the goods, and paying the 78 Lempiras, I head back out, but not before I turn my coy smile to all those faces who believed I would not step back into the storm from hell. With my chest out I walked triumphantly back towards the apartment. The drugie guy who gives me a, "Respect!" every time I pass looks up from his covering with surprise and even more respect as I walk by. Just then a pair of donkeys are washed away to their death by a newly formed river. ;-)

I step to our door and knock to show the mighty warrior had returned. No answer. I knock again. Still no answer. As I wait I put my hands in my pockets where I find the only keys to the apartment that I believed Rondal to have. I feared the worst but went inside to get a drink. A few minutes passed and in walked Rondal. Looking at me he says, "Sorry I didn't come straight back, but since it was raining so lightly I went to the internet cafe' to sit and watch the sprinkling rain mix with the sun set."

If you listened carefully you could hear in that very moment the sound of my ego delating.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

The Wizard of Odds

I came in today from the English book study in Sandy Bay that meets at 3:00 p.m. It’s a hot one out here. We came back with Sister Howell to shop for some Vegetables and fruit from the pick-up truck guys.

I played with the neighborhood dog that likes to scare the crap out of you by running up behind you like a rabid dog when you’re not looking. She’ll come almost to touching you. Then once she sees you’ve peed your pants in fear she’ll run back to her hiding place jumping and playing with prideful joy.

Walking all the way back to our apartment dressed for the meeting in the heat of the day is not the most enjoyable task I could think of. I opened the door, stripped to my skibbies and grabbed “Una Coca-Cola”. As I drank I got this tingly feeling of joy and relief in the back of my throat.

I sit in our apartment watching the towels and sheets we hung up in the main room being twirled around by the dueling fans. The crickets chirp outside as the iguanas come up to eat them. The water ripples a quarter mile down the road as the water taxi goes by. Above the pre-recorded music of “Fosters” a Spanish swear is heard as a “Salva Vida” beer plops into the ocean below. Tomorrow I’m sure I will come across it as I dive down looking for the exposed bit of Captain Morgan’s Treasure still buried somewhere on this Island. At times my treasure hunter heritage gets the best of me.

Today I got up early as Rondal slept, put on some shorts and a pair of sneaks to go out for a nice run along the beach from West End to West Bay. I ended up just walking. It was so quiet and peaceful. The repetitious crash of the two inch waves kept my mind fixed on the text and Bible Reading from earlier. The time to really delve into my spiritual studies is a gift I could not put a price on.

As I walked back I popped into the internet café/ bungalow where I do my surfing. Tanja, the girl who runs the store, is very earthy and beautiful in her own decided way. I think she’s taking a liking to Rondal. She’s mentioned his height and kindness one too many times for it just to be a friendly thing.

Finishing there, I went back home. I took off my shoes and put on my sandals “Mr. Rodgers” style, picked up my “bit ‘o Beck” self made Beck mix CD, and popped it into the portable player. As I funky walked my way back out I made sure to grab my Bible Teach book.

For the next fifteen minutes or so I funky walked my way around town, occasionally looking up and thanking Jehovah for such a great day. When I found an empty dock I sat down, pulled out my book and took in the rays of light and knowledge.

I dreamt a dream I’d never dreamt before.

Just as I was about to nod off I heard the sound of unwinding that electricity makes when it goes out. The blades of my fan slowly came to a halt, as did the little bit of oxygen that flowed through my small room. Pools of sweat collected at the tip of my sternum and belly button until they over flowed to form the ocean forming between myself and the bed. The silence of my mind convincing itself to go to sleep was broken by a crash of lightning outside my window. The steady claps of water against the leafs of Banana trees increased to a roaring crowd of applause. The wind whipped and blew hard enough to blow down the brick house of the third little pig. Since my windows are only screens with wooden bars behind them, and my pools of sweat were lonely, the rain decided to ride the wind through the windows and onto my body.

Considering that I had not checked the news in two weeks, and it was the start of hurricane season, a bit of fear begin to creep up inside of me. Not enough to produce twisted intestines, but enough to cause all hopes of sleep to vanish.

Normally I love thunder storms at night, but being inside a tree house built on the ground took all the joy out of it. Hours passed when the winding up of electricity and fan blades answered my prayers. As I dosed off to sleep my mind was full of joy and ease.

If I had known what kind of dream my subconscious had in store for me I would have gone outside to join the storm.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

More To Come!

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Update on the selfish CD

Sorry that the selfish CD never came. I was half way finished when I left for NYC and when I came back all the songs and addresses had been erased. :-( So, I'm going to have to delay the CD until I get back. If you still want to be a part of the selfish CD please resend your songs and addresses to me, but this time send it to sunblindedhappiness@gmail.com. Thanks for being patient.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

The hooded dog on the scooter went that way!

I am but a perpetually unfinished hope.

Desire and passion are not born from disfunction, but from heart.

Few see the true part of me blurred beneath functioning masks.