Indecision

“And the fact that you can’t, the fact that you think you have this special private reservoir of truth inside you—I really don’t see how this squares with your I-agree-with-everyone-about-everything-ism. This is the one thing everybody does agree on. Everybody thinks they have their own special something inside. Only it happens to be so vague it can’t be described. So everyone gets to keep their specialness all to themselves. So we all get to prefer ourselves to everyone else.” -Benjamin Kunkel

Late Night Documentaries

To me, the only thing left after a while was that night we watched documentaries up through morning and then you kicked me out. You opened up your screen door and threw me off the porch. It was summer then and I drove home whistling muddy waters down the pike. And that was that: our one sweet night together. Under highway signs I watched our love start fluttering and dissipating. I counted all the headlights to make sure I was all right. Now I'm wondering is it me or is it me that can't see silver linings? So I screwed it up. I watched you go.I saw my hand not dialing the phone. All I'm left to do is remember the dull room we sat in blue stream light watching the strike of '79. Oh can't I touch your cheeks somewhere under dirt filled rainy nights with my socks stuck in the mud? Please come dive in puddles with me.

-a mixture of an old song, ideas, and mixed memories

My Step-Great-Grand-Father

What if you could go back and watch Albert Einstein in action? How about ask King Solomon his advice on life? What about speak to Shakespeare about his ideas on love? Well, I can’t offer anything even close to that, but I can offer my Step-Great-Grand-Father, named Johnny. He claims to be as smart as Einstein, as wise as King Solomon, and as good with the ladies as Shakespeare. I continually question such claims, but that has never stopped him from giving me gems of advice and experience. I don’t want to be selfish and keep this majestic man’s mind all to myself, so I have created a blog to share him with the world! I know many of you will begin to read Johnny’s words of wisdom and ask, “Why can’t I ask Johnny a question, myself?” Well folks, you can! On this blog you will find a link allowing you to ask whatever your heart desires to this sage among men. I will personally ask Johnny your question and give you his actual response. I hope you enjoy.

http://jemsfromjohnny.blogspot.com/